If you are reading my writings, and have no knowledge of the word of God, it will be difficult for you to understand, I do recommend you to read the bible, the gospels Mathew, Mark, Luke and John and Isaiah in the prophets from chapter 40, If you read Pauls writings in the New Testament his revelation of Christ in you is most worthwhile, but those that idolise all his writings can’t be trusted. It does come down to having ears to hear and eyes to see and the Lord is Jesus so don’t go away from Him.